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Thank you so much for stopping by! I have named this blog "Running to the Cross" because that is what I often find myself doing...running to be with my Lord Jesus! I often cover many aspects of life on my blog, as it is my journal. I used to write things down in all sorts of notebooks, but my writings would soon be lost. So I decided that it was time to start a blog and share my thoughts and ideas with others. Many topics you will find here are prayers, homemaking and organization, children and pregnancy, funny stories, and the challenges of parenting and motherhood. If you enjoy my blog and leave me a comment, you are likely to have me visit! I love meeting others and gleaning from the lives of others. May you be blessed! Your friend in Christ, Heather

Monday, June 23, 2008

The Curve Ball

Sometimes God throws you a curve ball. You plan and you plan, but He has other plans...

Here is my curve ball...
Last Tuesday, after having what I thought was my cycle, I found out that I was pregnant. Great news, I know, but that's not the curve ball...

I started spotting Monday night (before Tuesday), decided to take a pregnancy test...positive, spotted on and off all last week. Began taking ginseng (to raise my progesterone level) & vitamin E (supposed to be helpful with a threatening miscarriage)....and it helped, by Saturday the spotting had stopped. I went to church Sunday...everything still clear...but at church I began having pinkish discharge again. When I woke this morning, I had bled a little in the night...dark red...ugh, enough to make me worry again.

So I guess I am threatening to miscarry, or already have...just waiting for it to complete...you see, I had a "cycle" two weeks ago today (when pregnant)...so I'm thinking miscarriage. Yes, I have had one before and today I was hurting so bad I couldn't stand up straight...

I said to myself earlier on, I'm okay with it, I can handle more than I used to...but when I woke this morning and found the blood in my underwear, I realized that it is going to be hard...miscarriage is NEVER easy...why should I think that it is?

I know that nothing happens outside of the will of God...He will comfort me, and He has...but the tears are still coming. I will get through this, but not without God's help. I still don't know yet if this is a miscarriage...only time will tell...prayers are appreciated.

Don't know when I will update again...maybe when things have settled again and I have worked through whatever is the outcome of this...

May God bless...
Heather

3 comments:

prayzgod said...

I misscarried in 1998, with my first pregnancy. Even though that was 10 years ago, I still remember it all quite vividly.

If you are having so much cramping with the bleeding, then you are probably miscarrying. :-( My friend had a miscarriage last month.

It's never easy, but at least you know that little baby is in heaven, and you'll get to meet him or her.

Swylv said...

praying for you

Amity said...

(((HUGS))) I will keep you in my prayers throughout the day and week. May the Lord comfort you.